Tears

I've had lots of tears lately, between the childcare issue and the dogs there has been plenty to bring on the waterworks.

We've not found the right fit for a nanny yet, but we're still looking and trying very hard. Grammie isn't complaining about her duties, but I do wonder when Paco is going to pipe up and ask for his wife back...

The search continues and we're doing our best to trust in God's perfect plan. We know that He knows who we need, sometimes we just act like we forgot and get a little wrapped up in making it happen on our time. And by 'we' I mostly mean 'me.'

Now, the dogs. Hamilton is still very sick and we've had to come to a very difficult decision regarding him and his health. We're not putting him down, but we are going to find a new home for Rutledge.

Unfortunately for us, Rutledge is an extremely large (I'd say the single largest) source of stress for Hamilton and in his condition, stress = sickness. If we were talking about Hamilton just being annoyed and grumpy, well, he'd have to get over it, but with Addisons, Hamilton being stressed means that he doesn't eat, won't take his meds, gets dehydrated, has accidents, gets eye infections, looses fur, and has ungodly gastro-intestinal issues. So you see our problem. If we keep both dogs, Hamilton's life will be short and miserable.

The good news is that I've heard from a handful of families who think Rutledge would be a fantastic fit for them! While it is heartbreaking and I often have cried while talking to these families, it does make me happy to imagine Rutledge living in a house with 3 or 4 kids running around and loving on him! In our house, Rutledge is often being fussed at for bothering Hamilton, and that isn't fair to him because he is a puppy and he just wants to play and be loved! We'll be sad to see him go, but I know he will have a better situation in a house where he gets to be happy and rambunctious, that is until his basset switch flips and he just sleeps all day.

So, there have been and will likely be lots more tears around here, but we're doing our best to keep chugging along and seeking God's will for our lives, and even our pets' lives. I keep reminding myself that this isn't just about us 'losing' a pet, this is about a family getting a pet that they will love for years to come.

I'll keep you posted on our decision with Rutledge, and of course on Hamilton and his condition.